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Mind-Crushing Boredom

Journal Entry: Mon May 12, 2008, 10:06 AM
  • Mood: Unheard
  • Listening to: NIN > The Slip
  • Reading: The Vampire Lestat <33
  • Watching: 30 Days of Night
  • Playing: Nothing; PS2's Breaking. AGAIN.
  • Eating: Blueberries and Iron Supplement Pills
  • Drinking: Water
I really, really wish I was at school right now.

I feel really bad -- on top of my sinus headache and fever. (I freakin' hate you right now, Dad, bringing home this stupid flu strain, not to mention deciding that of course no one in the family need a flu shot -- why would we need one of those? We can't afford it anyways, what with you not taking a freakin' better job.) Not to mention that I'm anemic on top of all this, so I already feel exhausted most of the time (and it's also why I keep catching absolutely everything that comes through this stupid house. God, I hate this stupid house.) I mean, I'm missing Musical Theatre, and I hate getting caught up on dance routines from other people, because I feel like such a burden, since I'm not one of the main characters, and I guess that ...

Well, I guess that I feel like I don't really deserve to be sitting here and doing nothing about now. I should be at school, working my ass off to put on a good show.

I wonder if I'd feel less guilty if I actually had a role. I mean, then the show couldn't go on without me, I'd feel like there was actually a point to taking care of myself. Because, well, let's face it; in my current role, no one would notice if I didn't happen to be there.

Well. Except maybe my partner in the dance we were supposed to be doing today.

Damnit, I should have popped a couple more sinus pills and just gone. Gawd.





Anyways, in other news, I really need a new hoodie. The one I've been wearing for the past two years is full of holes, and threadbare.

I told my parents this the other day, and then demonstrated several of the holes to them.

They gave me the "well-what-the-hell-am-I-supposed-to-do-about-it, isn't-this-your-problem?" sort of look.

Fucking hell.




I'm bloody pissed.




I need more shirts too; all of my clothes are wearing out, since I haven't actually gone through and properly re-vamped my wardrobe in a couple of years.

I need a freakin' job, since apparently my parents have decided that giving me money for the essentials is no longer a viable option.




Blah.

I think I'm just going to go and write some violent fiction. And then burry my head in a pillow and scream some.




You know what else I need? A new iPod Shuffle. I think (presuming I ever get money), I'm gonna upgrade to the 2 GB version, because last night, when I went to load more NIN onto my iPod, I had to make some really painful decisions about what I was going to take off of my iPod, to make it all fit. (I ended up taking a bunch of the Sweeney soundtrack off, and some of my opera. This makes me sad.)

Maybe I'll just find a mysterious benefactor. I'll seduce one.

There, problem solved. Take that, parents who "can't afford" to buy me essentials so that I can stay warm.

Pfft.





Current Stuff:

God, I swear I'm drawing Lance. ><;; It's just ... really, really, really slow going. Or something. *bangs head against keyboard*

That 10k fanservice? I'm pissed at how it's turning out.

It may show up here. It may not. It's not like anyone actually cares.

As to writing? Ppffft, wriitng. Like I'd ever actually make anything of myself writing.

So, basically, there's no progress.

Anyone who cares needs to get themselves checked out by a doctor. Like nows.





Buddies:
:iconkristehvampire: :iconclaws-of-death: :icontyrine666: :icondrachekind89: :iconalicedmcetah: :iconlancedarkness: :iconcolumnfive: :iconsarcasticservice: :iconthegloomthdaedalum: :iconninereeds-da: :iconbloodstainedscalpel: :iconzoomzoomxandy: :iconmonday-morningx: :iconvankid: :icongirxdolly: :iconbritt1507: :iconsoralove: :iconxiahoudun: :iconvpcdmd: :iconearth8000: :iconbeckson: :iconakmasonwestra: :icondrayik: :icontanithlilitu:
(Tell me if I missed you.)


Devious Information

  • Current Age: Sixteen
  • Current Residence: Somewhere in the Wilds of Canada
  • deviantWEAR sizing preference: X-Small/Small
  • Print preference: If People want to give me Prints, I'm in. xD
  • Interests: Drawing, writing, Freddy, taking over the world ...
  • Favourite movie: Anything Horror, Especially with Freddy/Vampires/Zombies. >w<
  • Favourite band or musician: I like to sing ... *goofy grin*
  • Favourite genre of music: Ramen. n_n
  • Favourite artist: Right now, Probably Luis Royo.
  • Favourite poet or writer: Me. xPP And Drachekind89. I Luffs her Stuff. T_T
  • Favourite photographer: Claws-of-Death + TheGloomthDaedalum. ^^
  • Favourite style or digital art: Anime. Obviously.
  • Operating System: Mac OSX.
  • MP3 player of choice: iPod Shuffle
  • Shell of choice: Uhhh ... a turtle shell? Or maybe a clam shell? *heh*
  • Wallpaper of choice: Iz Freddy!! *massivetacklerape* >w<
  • Skin of choice: (Insert witty and captivating response here)
  • Favourite game: Final Fantasy VII, Dance Dance Revolution, Resident Evil 4
  • Favourite gaming platform: PS2, or Most Arcade Gaming Platforms
  • Favourite cartoon character: Nny. And Squee. And Shmee. And the Doughboys. =D
  • Personal Quote: "... With the huge snake in Leon's ... *pause* ... I WAS GOING TO SAY BRIEFCASE, I SWEAR!&
  • Tools of the Trade: Pencil, Paper, Adobe Photoshop CS3, Corel Draw, HP Scanner.

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~TheM-Man:iconTheM-Man: 2 days 10 hours ago
That's just a bonus.

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''Yeah, dis I know, eshole.''- Niko Bellić
~Blade-Of-Mako:iconBlade-Of-Mako: 3 days 1 hour ago
Mmm, and the last, apparently.

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Oh, [Rubber Ducky], You're the one.
You Make Bath Time Lots of Fun, Rubber Ducky, I'm Awfully Fond of You.
~TheM-Man:iconTheM-Man: 3 days 4 hours ago
I don't care if people fight back as longs as I have the first say.

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''Yeah, dis I know, eshole.''- Niko Bellić
~obiskus:iconobiskus: 3 days 4 hours ago
Thank you for the favourite! :hug:

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"Who is the more foolish the fool or the fool who follows him?" -Ben Kenobi, ANH

Member of *ArtisanCrafts, *JewelryClub and *metalsmiths
~Blade-Of-Mako:iconBlade-Of-Mako: 3 days 6 hours ago
No, I assume the only criteria for you 'ripping' on someone is the ability for that person to draw breath.
But, then again, maybe not. If they don't they can't fight back, which seems to be what you descend upon first.

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Oh, [Rubber Ducky], You're the one.
You Make Bath Time Lots of Fun, Rubber Ducky, I'm Awfully Fond of You.
~TheM-Man:iconTheM-Man: 3 days 6 hours ago
Oh yeah. Well not everyone from (insert group of dipshits) acts like (insert stereotype), you're one of them. But that doesn't mean I won't rip on you.

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''Yeah, dis I know, eshole.''- Niko Bellić
~Blade-Of-Mako:iconBlade-Of-Mako: 3 days 7 hours ago
Mmm, well, by your own volition, haven't you already marked this as an unintelligent conversation? You have already called me 'emo'.

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Oh, [Rubber Ducky], You're the one.
You Make Bath Time Lots of Fun, Rubber Ducky, I'm Awfully Fond of You.
~TheM-Man:iconTheM-Man: 3 days 7 hours ago
Talking to anyone who doesn't have a fandom is an intelectual conversation to me. Or someone who isn't a goth, punk, emo, metal head, hippy, vegetarian etc.

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''Yeah, dis I know, eshole.''- Niko Bellić
~Blade-Of-Mako:iconBlade-Of-Mako: 3 days 8 hours ago
Oh. Well. That's a pity.
Was excited there for a moment.
Thought there might be something intellectually stimulating that I'd missed.

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Oh, [Rubber Ducky], You're the one.
You Make Bath Time Lots of Fun, Rubber Ducky, I'm Awfully Fond of You.
~TheM-Man:iconTheM-Man: 3 days 8 hours ago
Yeah, that one.

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''Yeah, dis I know, eshole.''- Niko Bellić
~Blade-Of-Mako:iconBlade-Of-Mako: 3 days 9 hours ago
Another interesting spat? Mmm, must have missed the first one; all I saw was one person telling another to watch their tongue, and the other one rebuking that the first should essentially shut up and kill themselves.

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Oh, [Rubber Ducky], You're the one.
You Make Bath Time Lots of Fun, Rubber Ducky, I'm Awfully Fond of You.
~TheM-Man:iconTheM-Man: 3 days 15 hours ago
You can either continue to insult me, which any pre-schooler can do, or you can actually say something that'll trigger another iteresting spat. Your choice, dude.

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''Yeah, dis I know, eshole.''- Niko Bellić
~Blade-Of-Mako:iconBlade-Of-Mako: 4 days 1 hour ago
You know, I really can't think of anything petty enough to use as a reply; and I've been thinking about this for some time.

Which is really a pity, as I was quite enjoying this foray into the depths of the under-educated human mind.

Oh well.

Hope you enjoyed yourself.

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Oh, [Rubber Ducky], You're the one.
You Make Bath Time Lots of Fun, Rubber Ducky, I'm Awfully Fond of You.
*Ellygator:iconEllygator: 4 days 8 hours ago
Thanks so much for faving "Sanguinarium"!

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*oniricapaura:icononiricapaura: 4 days 9 hours ago
t h a n k y o u :heart:

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~TheM-Man:iconTheM-Man: 4 days 13 hours ago
Not really, no.

Shut up. I adjust to the world since it is impossible for the world to adjust to me.

Errr, no. Emo is someone who is overly emotional and you took what I said to your friend way too seriously and you reacted like an emo moron. You acted as if I pickaxed her leg and raped her with a horse when all I did was dick about with no intention of really hurting anyone. However, suicide wouldn't be a bad thing for you because you must get tired from hearing people like me talk. You might have more fun in the afterlife.

That ''have a crappy day'' bit is from G. Carlin and I use it to make fun of the standard ''have a nice day''.

Sure. Whatever.

Ha-freakin'-ha. I read every single piece of criticism I get and some of them were much more thought provoking without the aid of politeness.

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''Yeah, dis I know, eshole.''- Niko Bellić
~Blade-Of-Mako:iconBlade-Of-Mako: 5 days 2 hours ago
'Lazy' and 'stupid' may have separate definitions, but they occupy much the same boat, if you will.

The easiest excuse in the book for anything is to say that you are capable of something, but are simply 'too lazy'. It's incredibly easy to say something like that, because it seems to excuse one from actually trying at anything, doesn't it? One never has to prove that they can do it, because they have this wonderful thing to fall back on -- this perceived laziness.

But, when you think about it, isn't laziness and true stupidity much the same thing? Neither one will get anyone anywhere in a world where one doesn't feel so secure behind their computer screen.

As for my supposed "ten dollar dictionary" (and if you may happen to know where I could get a proper literary dictionary for such a sensational price, I should be very glad to know of it), I would advise you to invest in one before throwing some of these most interesting phrases around. (Though I suppose you would not actually be able to locate any of them in a proper dictionary, as they are current slang, but I digress.)

'Emo' is generally a term which refers to people of the current subgroup which revolves, as I recall, around suicide, and hating their life. I would rather enjoy hearing where you get this particular perception of me from, since all I have done is leave a brief message on your DeviantArt page, advising you to wise up about leaving comments on the pages of people you've never so much as spoken to before.

Honestly, if you're going to berate someone, at least have some sort of reason for it. Hitting the random deviant button and leaving messages wishing that they will "have a crappy day", as I believe you put it, is rather wretched.

My message was never meant to be threatening. (Though the image of a deranged two-year-old with a fork sitting on someone's DA page is making me giggle quite a bit.) I simply meant to point out that you were (and are) being quite rude, and that you really must wise up, presuming you ever make it into the real world someday.

The thank you was meant to be a polite touch for actually taking the time to read some criticism, perhaps even think about it. It's a true pity that such a thing is alien to you.

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Oh, [Rubber Ducky], You're the one.
You Make Bath Time Lots of Fun, Rubber Ducky, I'm Awfully Fond of You.
~momax:iconmomax: 5 days 7 hours ago
thank u for the fave
~TheM-Man:iconTheM-Man: 5 days 9 hours ago
Hey, I've come to reply to your ''little'' something.

First, the last thing I need to see is a pseudo-intellectual emo goth girl talking to me with some 10 dollar dictionary words that I don't ever care to look up since it's much more fun to talk in a language people can understand. You think that having a few extra words in your vocabulary somehow makes you smarter and holier than me? I'll say this, it doesn't. It never has and it never will. The fact that I use a smaller collection of words in no way means that I am stupid. It means that I am too lazy. Lazy and stupid are different.

I do take what I say into account and that is why I don't go shooting my mouth off to complete strangers who I know have a switch blade or a gun handy when I'm talking to them.

One more thing, don't say ''thank you'' at the end of an insulting and/or threatening (actually, your message was as threatening as a 2-year old with a fork) message because it makes you sound like a douchebag.

Vid'mo se.

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''Yeah, dis I know, eshole.''- Niko Bellić
~deathra-horrorlover:icondeathra-horrorlover: May 7, 2008, 11:26:05 AM
me gots sumfin in scwaps toos

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~deathra-horrorlover:icondeathra-horrorlover: May 7, 2008, 11:24:31 AM Mood: Love
Pwease look at my new stuffs and comment. Pwetty pwease? <irresistable puppy dog eyes and lip quiver>

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HORROR FANGIRLS UNITE!!!!!!!!!

92% of teens have moved on to rap. If you are part of the 8% who still listen to real music, copy and paste this into your signature.
Metal is what we love.

If you think slashers are hot, copy this into your profile.
~1WinterHusky:icon1WinterHusky: May 6, 2008, 11:44:14 AM
[link] i drew this thinking you might like it :)
~columnFive:iconcolumnFive: May 4, 2008, 10:08:32 AM
Thanks for the faves! =D

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All the money that we're making is going to the man. What man? Which man? Who's the man? When's a man a man? What makes a man a man? Am I a man? Yes. Technically I am.
*ladysharkbite:iconladysharkbite: May 1, 2008, 3:45:43 PM Mood: Affection
Hey!:)Thank you so much for the fav!!:)